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Thailand, En Route

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I am sitting at the airport currently. SFO is a second home of sorts for me. A place where I gather my thoughts, I realize areas of my life where I am walking around blind and areas where I am quite aware and awake. It is a place where the noise and frantic activity for me is fluid and calming. I love typing while sitting in this airport. I re-experience many moments of recent and long ago past while I collect myself at this airport. I am currently in the international terminal waiting on a flight to Beijing with China Air and then onward to Bangkok. I have wanted to experience Thailand since I was a kid. I have been looking at galleries, reaching out to people, and slowly working towards a moment where this would be a reality for the past two years. Life is so busy, as I have not done quite the homework I wanted to, but getting there with a solid base is the first step. Who knows what will come together from there.  A little over a year ago I was in the Virgin America terminal headed to LAX and then to Tokyo. And so the story goes. Me, my laptop, a moment to look back at the last month of travel and work, the lives I am a part of and that are a part of mine and that I will be apart from for the next two weeks geographically. And so the story continues to go.

Eating Hot Pot in the Sunset with Tiffani Chan

Eating Hot Pot in the Sunset with Tiffani Chan

A month and a half ago I boarded a plane to fly to LA to help paint a massive mural for the city with an up and coming art star named Kent Yoshimura (click here for NY Times Article About this Project). From there I attended a potluck pool party at Superchief and then to North Carolina for my Grandmother's 90th Birthday celebration which was something beyond description. A powerful occurrence. The to help my mother with Surgery and line up some future art engagements and a show in Durham for 2018. Then boom, to NYC for two weeks where I painted a piece I am really proud of with Superchief NY and was able to spend some deep quality time with some very very special people in my life and get a sense of where I am going right now and where I need to apply energy and focus. Then it was back to the SFO to spend a few days preparing in the Bay for this trip to Thailand. It sounds exhausting, but honestly, it gives me energy and life. There are moments of exhaustion and collapse, only to feel the spirit of the Universe open up as if to say "Explore this world of ours".

Me in the ER due to a relapse in 2010. I keep this image to remind of my past and my disease and to always remember how grateful I am to be sober and in the realm of the spirit.

Me in the ER due to a relapse in 2010. I keep this image to remind of my past and my disease and to always remember how grateful I am to be sober and in the realm of the spirit.

I guess the take away from this is that life is meant to be lived. I am going to be meeting and working with some amazing art peeps in Thailand. I have not yet met them in person but was guided into their presence by a very very solid and respected and loved friend I made in the Bay Area Arts Community many years ago. The technicalities of all of this sort of activity are daunting sometimes, but only one aspect. They become just that, a technicality, a part of the process, once the feeling of direction and being fully awake to life leading the way becomes a beacon of the path I am on. I can only speak for myself. These moments of solitude amongst other travelers are precious to me. A moment to stop and see what is working and what needs correction, a moment to recognize that all the bits and pieces of the process are small in light of the channel of experience and energy we are in. Following, or rather being guided by that energy is everything to me. It has kept me sober for six years (officially as of September 1st, 2017). It has helped me become more awake little by little to my own behaviors that keep me disconnected from the light and to those that keep my flowing within the brilliance of the spirit. I look at all of these travelers right now, I think about the projects and new directions I will take and explore with my art and work life when I get back, and I know I am intensely fortunate to be in this channel right now. Most importantly I type and type as the thoughts and unseeable and unexplainable bubble up with a high frequency of internal power and settle into the realization that I am about to have a life changing experience. 

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If you were able to ream anything from this that makes me very happy. I often write at length in a way that is concerned with an unexplainable side of experience which is kind of a paradox, but nonetheless many get it as they live it, and those that experience life differently still find their parallels. I am about to go deep on a journey right now. The recent travels to get here have shown me new aspects and important evolving positions in life. The love I feel around me continues to overtake my sometimes pessimism and ego, and the work that will be done in building relationships, experience, exploring time and space, and making amazing creative moments together. Word, we definitely all do this together. I am can't wait to find a temple in Thailand and get in touch with those ancient moments of knowledge and energy that open my eyes inside of realms I have not yet known. 

Mon and I in front of our huge painting at Jusoko, Osaka 2016

Mon and I in front of our huge painting at Jusoko, Osaka 2016